Hi my friends,
I have been very much overwhelmed by everything on my plate… that well… my blog became the least of my priorities.
This truly hurt my heart and made me feel really guilty (neglecting the blog).
I quit my 9-5 job, originally thinking I would have all of the time in the world to create more blog posts, video content, and all around just more time for everything.
Truth is, that didn’t happen and I’ve been so hard on myself for not doing it all.
I put this expectation on myself that is realistically, unattainable (I think we can all somewhat relate). And somehow I get mad at myself for not attaining the unattainable? Why do we do this to ourselves?
This week, it all finally caught up to me. My guilt for not achieving everything on my to do list, burnout from not giving myself a break, and shame for feeling like I failed myself.
I’m not trying be a negative nancy, but I do want to explain how I’m feeling this week. I think it’s important to show you the lows just as much as it is important to show you the highs.
If there are no lows, you wouldn’t appreciate the highs. And, I think it’s super valuable to show you everyone has bad days/weeks. Because then, you can see how they can get out of them. And that will only inspire you, when you experience low days as well.
I think pin pointing the reason for my low energy and negative head space is step one. Step two, is giving myself some space and grace. Step three, is loving myself and appreciating all that I am. Finally, step four, is getting back out there and kicking ass.
I’m wishing you all the best weekend and sending you so much love. Here’s a reminder that we are all doing our best.